in the end only kindness matters.

Have you ever stopped to think about how fast time really does fly? How it feels like just yesterday we were all still in kindergarten and living at home with our family, and we didn't have a care in the world.

This is part of my beautiful family.

They are the most relaxed, fun, loving people you could ever possibly meet in your life. They always are playing and laughing, and they never let the little things of life bother them.When Merri backed her 15 passenger van into a huge rock her darling husband just said "it's just a car".

But the wonderful father of this family has something.

Cancer.

My big question is why? why him?

He is always so loving and happy. I don't think he's ever done anything in his life to deserve getting sick. He has a wife and a family. He has a life, and he's not done living it.

When I look at the people around me, People in my Family, People in my social life, People I don't even know that well... I notice a lot of drama.

What is the point of it??

Life is so short. So why waist most of it being mad because of something some one said, or something some one wrote on facebook, or because of something someone did years ago? Why can't the world just learn to forgive and forget?

The other day Jeff and I were driving through Lehi, and we got stuck in a pretty bad traffic jam. Jeff turned off the car and after a few minutes I got sick of waiting and started complaining.

We were stuck on a road I've driven down at least 100 times in my life. Not much had changed, it was just a road in the middle of Lehi. As I sat there in the silence I looked out my window and for the first time in my life I noticed a brick wall/fence thing. I was amazed that after all these years this was the first time I had ever seen it. As I looked at that wall i noticed how beautiful the sky was and how perfect the long grass looked behind it.

It was beautiful.

How often do we find our self next to the most beautiful things in the world. But we never see them because we are to distracted by the things of the world?

I've always secretly wanted to get cancer. I don't necessary want to get sick and have to live half my life in the hospital or anything. But have you ever noticed how people with illness look at the world with a whole different set of eyes? As hard as I try to always see the world with those eyes I always seem to forget to keep on looking at those brick walls and beautiful blue sky's. My eyes always pull me back to the world.

So is it really that bad of a trial to get sick?

These people have been picked. Picked by god. Picked to come down and help teach the world a little bit about learning to look through those other set of eyes. To help us learn to love life, to love others, and to learn to let the little things go.

"If I could tell the world just one thing. It would be, that we're all O.K. and not to worry cause worry is wasteful and useless in times like these.

I won't be made useless, I won't be idle with despair, I will gather myself around my faith, for light does the darkness most fear."

I don't know a lot of things. But one thing I do know for sure is that the Church is true. I know that god has sent us down to this earth to learn and make mistakes. But he sent us to this earth so we could return and live with him forever . Because FAMILIES ARE FOREVER.